It’s been a bit over a month since I’ve written an entry on this blog. While that, in and of itself, may not seem particularly significant (I’ve gone longer without writing here and I’ve been writing in other ways and working on other projects), I can feel the difference in my heart and mind. This […]
Tag: Writing
When Words Weren’t There
I have always found comfort in words. When I was a young child, I had big feelings. (I see a lot of those big feelings mirrored in my very enthusiastic and lively 7 year old.) But big feelings don’t always have a place when a family is in survival mode and when the way to […]
Gratitude
It was a wonderful day, filled with beautiful people. In person, on the phone, via text. So many beloved people. I am grateful. And very tired. I will have one more meal with beloved friends tomorrow. After a sleep, and allergy medication for my very swollen foot. I was almost too tired to write. That […]
A Year of Writing? A Commitment to Reflection
By nature, I have a very all-or-nothing, addictive, jump in with both feet and give all the things all the energy approach to life. This comes from the desperation of always wanting (or having) to be the best in order to prove myself worthy of love at all. But once this approach becomes internalized, it […]
Voice and Visibility: The Wisdom in Our Words
What does it mean to believe that the stories we tell to our children have value to our academic communities? What does it mean to stand in that truth despite in the face of multiple submissions, multiple revisions, multiple rejections, and finally an acceptance, a publication, and a piece in the world that reflects pieces […]
Decoupling my worth from my work
It’s not so simple to navigate decoupling one’s worth from one’s work when you’ve spent your entire life working to prove your worth. Conceptually, I’ve been on this journey for awhile. I understand that I am worth more than my work, that my work doesn’t earn me “worthiness points,” that I am not more loved […]
Unlearning the Second Nature of Self
What does is mean to put myself first? To prioritize not just my needs, but what I want, yet remain committed to community care? This is my current inquiry. My whole life has been spent thinking that I should prioritize others, the work I have to do, the work that others call me to do, […]
Letting Go: Reclaiming My Write to Be
Today, I felt like myself for the first time in over two weeks. I didn’t wake up feeling like myself. I woke up with the sense of dread that I had been feeling for the last 15+ days welling up inside me, knotting my stomach, making it hard to think and harder to feel, waking […]
Today
There is so much to say, so much I haven’t written, and I don’t know where to start, so I will start by writing. When I was in graduate school, a mentor once taught me about the concept of “brain dumping” and “writing to clarity.” It is this process where you have so many things […]
Making (Taking? Reclaiming?) Time I Don’t Have….
I really don’t have the time to write this blog. And that’s probably exactly why I need to make, take, reclaim the time to write it. It is the second week of the semester. Yesterday, I went pretty much non-stop from my 6am run to arriving home after choir practice at 8:30pm then taking a […]