It’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve written. Ironically, hours after my last entry, “Ebb & Flow,” I was involved in a minor car accident in which I totaled my car and had to really think about the balance or lack thereof in academic and personal life. So, I’ve taken a couple weeks to sleep, reflect more privately than publicly and regroup before coming back to the blog.
But, here I am, thinking aloud publicly again, on the topic of identity.
I wrote a recent piece that was ostensibly about the adoption of an identity as a “teacher of literacy” in addition to an identity as a “teacher of content” among secondary single subject teacher candidates (middle & high school teachers who get a credential in a particular subject). My argument was that, by expanding one’s notion and understanding of literacy in a way that allowed for the relevance of literacy to be an important part of one’s emergent instructional identity, literacy teacher educators played an important role in supporting the development of teachers who would not only teach students math, PE, music, or social studies, but also teach them to be literate in these fields.
The article was rejected for not bringing sufficient new “insights” to the table.
So, as we academics do, I went back to the drawing board and infused the article with evidence that teacher candidates not only developed a stronger sense of their identity as teachers of literacy and teachers of content, but that they also developed capacity to integrate literacy strategies into their lesson planning which supported their strength as overall teachers.
I haven’t resubmitted my article yet as I’m working with some feedback from a friend and fellow researcher about the fact that this additional information seems to take away from the identity lens, but I realized that my natural tendency to integrate “evidence of effectiveness” is a result of my questioning that teacher identity is really ENOUGH to be important.
This is ironic since my dissertation and first major research publication is on teacher professional identity.
It’s even more ironic since this blog is really about the struggle of the intersections of many parts of my identity: mother, assistant professor, teacher educator, writer (not to mention those roles like wife and friend that don’t even make it onto the blog most of the time).
Well, and to add another layer of irony, identity is the lens through which I think about most of my life as well. My identity as a mother has, in large part, shaped advice that I give my students in many areas such as homework, communication with families, and classroom management. My identity as a social justice educator frames the texts I use and the way that I present literacy in my classroom, as I push students to read the world as well as the word. My identity as a teacher educator shapes the way I approach my son’s schooling, my social media use, and to some extent my interactions with friends.
We bring in who we are, everywhere we go.
So, in many ways, identity is not only enough to be important, it’s the driving force behind many of our choices, personal and professional. And, if my article wasn’t sufficiently insightful, perhaps it didn’t suffer from a lack of importance so much as a lack of clarity.
I’m not sure yet, but I’m sure I’ll keep working at it until I figure something out. After all, tenacity in reflection is a sure (and important) part of my professional identity. I’ll keep the blog posted…