I have said no three times in the last week. This is a pretty major accomplishment. Two of the three times I really wanted to say yes. They were important asks by organizations that I respect and want to serve. The other time, I felt guilty about what I felt like I should do and […]
Month: October 2019
Joy
Life is about ebb and flow. For me, there is a constant push and pull between exhaustion and exhilaration; sorrow and joy; absence and presence; feeling competent and impostor syndrome. All of the things. But, this weekend, there was joy in recovering. I got some things done this weekend. I often wish I could say […]
Exhaustion
I am tired. Like this owl, sitting up, squinting at you through its sleep, I am tired. I’ve been at the California Council on Teacher Education Fall Conference since Wednesday. Following my Wednesday morning drive, I had an all-day board meeting, and two full conference days (with me returning to my hotel room at 9 pm […]
Reflections on Today’s Community Circle & Doing My Best
I have pretty much been on auto-pilot since Monday. I have been in periods of survival mode for so long that the last 4 days have somehow seemed relatively normal. It’s a little harder to remember things. It’s harder to focus. It’s harder to stay present. I want to be on social media or watch […]
What does it mean to be “okay”?
Yesterday, our campus was on lockdown. It was not the first time I’ve been on a campus when it was locked down because of the threat of an active shooter. The last time was before Sandy Hook, when I was still a middle school teacher, and a former student had been seen in the neighborhood […]