In my last blog post, I talked about the exhaustion of this last quarter and the last academic year, and how, in spite of it all, I was able to find joy in teaching, presenting, writing, fem/mentoring, and mothering. Today, I launched my summer course and received my teaching evaluations from the spring. I’m sitting […]
Tag: Struggle
What is Lost; What is Gained — A Reflection on Winter Quarter 2026
Well, I didn’t think that the first 10 weeks of 2026 was going to go quite the way it did. I started out the year on a way to a diagnosis of Graves Disease, clear that I felt unwell, but unsure why. As I enter my fourth week on medication, I am beginning to […]
Weight, Wait, Don’t Tell Me…
I have been carrying a lot of things for a long time. The weight of it all is exhausting. I rarely notice as more and more gets added, little by little, to the load. Often it is me adding things to the load as if it does not exist. The load feels indistinguishable from my […]
When It Rains…Final Reflection Fall Quarter 2025
It’s rainy and windy in Seattle right now. I try to take the opportunity at the end of every academic term, particularly those during which I teach, to engage in reflection. When I was younger and stuck inside during occasional heavy rains, watching the rain fall on the world outside, I would also reflect. So, […]
Learning and Letting Go
I have started and restarted this blog post multiple times, trying to find the “best” way to share what I’ve been learning over the last 11 days. And, ironically, what I realized, is that this starting, stepping away, restarting, starting fresh, is representative of what I’ve been learning. There isn’t necessarily always (or ever) a […]
Be Gentle
There is an oft-cited quote about kindness or gentleness that reminds us that everyone is fighting a battle that we may not know anything about. This quote often comes to me on February 3. February 3, 1995, I lost my mother in a car accident. Losing my mother, in more ways that I can say, […]
Sitting with Discomfort
This perhaps will not be a super clear post. I am not gathered and so my thoughts are not either, but I am giving myself permission to be just as I am. [I also want to preface this post with space for however anyone else may be in their humanity in this moment. This isn’t […]
Moving Parts, Moving Whole
It has been a destabilizing time. This last year has been a navigation between multiple places and spaces, made more complex by a parallel journey towards greater humanity in a world that seems to be moving (in so many ways) towards dehumanization. It has been a tiring time. I find myself this week packing up […]
Broken Teeth, Broken Hearts & Healing: MotherScholaring & Holding Joy
Yesterday was a long day to end a week of unlearning. When we commit to honoring our humanity and embracing joy and healing, I suppose it’s to be expected that our humanity will show up in full-force. I mean, honestly, our humanity is always showing up, but I guess I’m more attuned to it now […]
Lifeboats
I am hanging in there, Friends. As I move through this period of transition for myself and my family, I am so present to the immense privilege of my life. I do what I love. I am deeply loved and held by family and community. I am safe. I no longer have to worry about […]