Sometimes, we just have to keep holding on, and moving forward, in community.
This has been an incredibly hard week for so many reasons.
There is still so much uncertainty.
But today, I am beginning to see light and beauty again.
And I am grateful for the community of friends, family and strangers that have walked alongside me while I struggled.
Earlier this week, I wrote about feeling like I failed my son. However, while the door closed on that assignment, it opened a door to give feedback on curriculum at my son’s school, and in creating a book list specific to his context (a public academic magnet schools with a 70% Asian American; 19% Latinx student population) and building from existing themes and texts, I was also able to share this list with others via Twitter.
The list was sourced through community.
It was shared through community.
It was added to by community.
I was able to really consider how to navigate a system designed to reproduce itself, to make a crack a bit wider, to support not only the students in my son’s school and community, but also my extended community online.
Thank you for lifting me up.
There are other things still going on, both personally and professionally, that are both hard and hopeful, but I am grateful that it is not all hard.
I am learning to embrace moments of hope and joy even amongst, or especially within, periods of deep grief and struggle.
I am learning that when you put things out in the universe, that which is yours will come and find you. And that for which it is not time or for which you are not meant can be accepted.
I am learning to be rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering and persevere in prayer.
I am really learning to be patient in it all, to continue to bring humanity to every situation, to make space where I can’t see it, at first, to step into spaces, and try, even when I feel like I may fail.
I could not do any of this without the strength of those in my community, who have been thinking of me, loving on me, praying for me. Holding me and holding space for me.
I am deeply grateful.
I am moving forward.
One step at a time.
One day at a time.
Moment by moment.