So, here I am, writing about rejection again…because, well, in addition to my grant proposal, I just had an article manuscript rejected this week as well.
I’m also exhausted, with a million things to do, school and daycare upheaval for my kids, and on my way home today, my tire pressure light came on.
But, I just had an amazing class, in a room with tables!
Look! Tables! So grateful to the awesome Shelby Riley (yay, @csulbced staff) for our new #edse436 room! pic.twitter.com/AtuDAHDrDO
— Betina Hsieh (@ProfHsieh) August 30, 2016
And, we got to talk about and represent our identities:
Sharing about #identity & how it relates to teaching #edse436 pic.twitter.com/0jCkZFC2ZM
— Betina Hsieh (@ProfHsieh) August 30, 2016
AND we got to connect our identities with those of our students, in thinking about what we want students to take from our courses:
Connecting our content, students & ourselves #edse436 pic.twitter.com/uxmCFdT0dj
— Betina Hsieh (@ProfHsieh) August 31, 2016
More connections between ourselves, our content & our students #edse436 pic.twitter.com/3oD4KBFEd0
— Betina Hsieh (@ProfHsieh) August 31, 2016
And what it all helped me to realize was that identity and integrity is all about who I am in moments of rejection and reflection–just as much as it’s about who I am when I’m celebrating a momentous victory. It’s about who I am when I am in the spotlight and when I’m silent. It is the totality of my being, the good and the bad.
So, now, I will drown the rough part of my day (week, semester) in a plate of homemade nachos and get in some last precious moments with my family before their bedtime and my next few hours of work.
And tomorrow will be a new day, for me to try it all again.