For the last 4 weeks, I have been holding my breath. It’s not uncommon during this time of year when I am always looking for grief to come find me. But this year, with my (fully-masked) son contracting COVID-19 from his Taekwondo practice just before the new year, the virus making its way unceremoniously through […]
Tag: Growth
Faith, Hope & Love
“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.” 1 Corinthians 13:13 In the past few months, I have been opening myself up to love more wholeheartedly. For people in my life, this may be surprising because I have always lived a life full of love. I love […]
Living Authentically
I have been speaking my truth and living it. I have been holding space for ease and patience, comfort and calm. It’s different, but it’s also been transformational. I am realizing that peace and freedom aren’t what I thought they would be. At times, they bring amazing joy. At times, they bring me to tears. […]
Peace
For most of my life, I have been searching for peace, joy, and rest. Sometimes what we are searching for is within us all along. I have held tight to responsibilities for my whole life. Even as a young child, I felt responsible for the happiness of my family. Through family mythology and the position […]
My Parents’ Daughter
I have spent many years claiming that I am, above all, my mother’s daughter, and this is true. My mother raised me alone for as long as I can remember. She loved me far more than she loved herself. She sacrificed everything to give me a chance at a life that was better than her […]
Being Sourced by Community
Growing up, I was told that asking for help was a sign of weakness. I am still told that today by some. Some say it aloud and directly, “Why are you asking for help? Are you so poor? Why are you taking away from those who really have need?” Others say it implicitly through glances […]
Walking
I’ve started walking recently. Pre-pandemic, I ran. I ran a lot (not as much as my friend Jung, but a lot more than zero and pretty consistently). I ran because it felt like the only time I could put my brain on pause. I ran in spite of injuries and exhaustion. Pre-pandemic, I also ran […]
Accepting Responsibility, Holding Space for Possibility, Moving Towards Freedom
Friends, I am moving towards freedom. But the journey towards freedom means a lot of unlearning. Today, I had a very powerful lesson on responsibility: accepting and taking responsibility for impact not aligned with intent; on what I cannot control: the pain of grace withheld and being misunderstood by someone I thought would know my […]
Reckoning, Reclamation, Resistance, and Restoration
CW: Eating disorder, Suicidality, Trauma (Skip to the Tl;dr if you don’t want to read that content) Dear Friends, This post is a hard one, but one I’ve been contemplating for a very long time. It’s a conversation I need to have with you all and there is no better time than today. May is […]
Living Tensions
It has been such a week, after such a week, a series of such weeks over this past year, and a series among a lifetime of such weeks. These weeks teach me about the living tensions and holding space for the abundance that makes up life even when it is so incredibly complicated. This week, […]